Week 1: The Workbook

So my prescription came with a workbook that seemed helpful initially. I'm a bit of a control freak and like to accomplish everything on my list. So on day 1, my activity was to keep a smoking log attached to my pack of Parliaments. I did, and was pretty good about logging my cigarettes for about a day or two, but things kind of fell apart on Thursday. Days 2-7, let's just say the dog ate my homework. Here's my attempt at catch-up:

Day 2: My personal reasons for quitting:
1) To live longer
2) To live a healthier lifestyle
3) To have a family
4) To look better
5) To stop lying to my family

Reason #5 is probably the most compelling for me, and really relates to all the others. I'm a closet smoker. My coworkers and friends know I smoke, but I've never come out to my husband, parents, or baby sister. For a long time I convinced myself that I had them all fooled. That my hair and my breath didn't smell like smoke or that my fingers weren't turning yellow from holding the damn things. I wish I could take back all the time wasted on fights with my husband, the denial, the avoidance.

Today is my quit date, October 28. So far, so good.